For Steve...

[Cat]

Folks.. I don't know how many of you are aware of the struggle Steve and his beloved girlfriend Allison have been going through for some time now. Allison has been battling cancer on and off but finally lost her battle this past Friday.

Those of you with memberships have been following this in the members only forum. But I wanted to give those of you who do not have access to that forum a chance to pay your respects to Musgrave, should you wish to do so.

[deanne]

I know I said something in Members Only...

My heart goes out to you, Steve. If you need anything, you know I'm here for you.
Take care. Don't be afraid to lean on your friends here and your family.

Much love to you, my friend.

[DarkKni9hT]

Damn, that's rough. I'm very sorry to hear this. I've lost a couple of relatives to cancer, one of my aunts is fighting it right now. It's a horrible thing to go through, for the family as well as the victim. Words can't really express enough to ease the sorrow, but if they could I'd write an epic for you, Steve. Take hold of the good memories and cherish them. Eventually, they will overshadow the sad ones. Keep your chin up.

[ponyrl]

.......shit, man.....just.....damn.

[Grant Perkins]

Come to England, there'll always be a drink waiting for ya.

[John Rauch]

Really sorry to hear about your loss, Steve. I think many of us here have lost someone close to us to cancer. If you ever need to chat, I'm available and I'm sure there are a slew of others as well.

[The Dag]

sorry steve

[j giar]

I've already said my peace...My condolences, Steve.

[rummblestrips]

I also said what I wanted to over there, but I'll say it here as well
You're in my thoughts for sure, Steve.
Take care and stay strong. Post anytime to you need to take, pm me as well. Heck, come up to Canada for a week and relax if you like, you're welcome to stay here.

[Calloway]

Cancer scares me man. Not so much for me but it's happened so much around me it scares me that anyone I know could get it. It's tough. I know your a strong minded guy but it's tough to deal with something like this. I'm at a loss of words of comfort but I'm feeling for you.

[jedipencil]

Nothing else to say for me either... my heartfelt condolences, Steve...

[L Jamal]

I was hoping that I didn't have to make this post, but apparently I do...

This thread is about helping a board member with his grieving. If you don't wish to participate, don't post. If you have nothing to say to help, don't post. If you have something to say that doesn't belong here in this thread, don't post. If you don't like Steve, don't post.

For some this will be your one and only warning. For others this is the LAST of many. If you can't respect my wishes for this thread, then you leave me no other choice but to ban you as I'm sure the others in this thread will support that.



edit: Sorry, baby, you forgot a word.

[pi0trov]

My condolences, Steve. I can't even begin to imagine what you're feeling, but just know that we're all here for you.

[LDahl]

Today there are tears for you and Allison all over the world.
We will not forget her, we can not take away your pain Steve, but we can share it with you.
I'm so very sad and sorry,
~momma Dahl

[William Blankenship]

:cry:

I don't even know what to type but I'm sorry to hear that, truly.

William Dean Blankenship Jr.

[DeVon72176]

My condolences as well.

[Lord Fejj]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[xadrian]

My best to you. I hope you have some friends or family that can help and be supportive.

:(

[Nitecrawlah2]

I don't know what to say. Who does? I feel so terrible for your loss, given everything the two of you have endured for so long. It hit me like a ton of bricks to read this, and I can't imagine what you must be going through Steve. Just, damn man. I wish with all my heart that you find all the comfort and solace you need on these boards and with everyone else in your life going through this. You'll all be in my prayers.

[Angel]

I've been away for a quite a while and I didn't expect this...I am sorry to hear of your loss and her loss. Much respect and I would help you deal if I could.

[ChrisK]

It's a shame really. I didn't know your friend nor do I really know you, but going through these things are tough. I wish you the best, and I'm truly sorry she had to go through this. I don't know what its like to lose someone so close to you because of an illness, but from my own experiences, just the thought itself is sometimes to much. Heh, I know the last thing you really want to do right now is read what some unknown idiot has to say, so I'll stop. Just so you know, you're both in my thoughts.

[monkeyboy]

My deepest condolences Steve.
I've also lost somoene to cancer in the last few weeks.
My thoughts are with you

[Screeny]

Come to England, there'll always be a drink waiting for ya.

Seconded....no cliches....just drink.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, everyone. It's hard. I'm not even close to being adjusted to the fact that she is gone. No more phone calls, no more joking around, no more planning for the future. It's just all gone. I miss her and it's hard.

mikel (monkeyboy): I'm sorry to hear you've recently lost someone to cancer too. It's an awful disease that just needs to stop.

[deanne]

**Hugs and Love**

[Scribbly]

I'm sorry for those news, man.
My condolences and best wishes for you.

Eduardo

[Spacious Interior]

I lost a Grandfather, a cousin, and a girlfriend all to cancer. I am absolutely right there with you an it will never, ever make any sense. The best comfort I can offer is the same that came to me oddly enough at the end of my favorite movie.

"If the people we love are taken form us, than the way to have them live on, is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn. Poeple die, but real love... is forever." - The Crow

I am so sorry.

[BKMDog]

Like many posters here at DW, I was aware of how ill Allison was, but this thread is the first I've heard of her passing. It's disheartening beyond any words. I obviously don't know Steve or Allison personally, but reading the various posts surrounding their situation over the months, it was clear that these were two people who really loved each other and were staying together no matter what.

I'm so very sorry Steve, for your loss. You're a man among men and I wish I had one-tenth of your character and courage. I genuinely hope that you will find peace in the days ahead. God bless you.

[Rob Norton]

i am very sorry to hear this. i had no idea this was going on. you have always had my respect steve. you are a strong person. my thoughts are with ya friend.


rob

[RandallFlagg]

Steve, I'm so sorry to hear about Allison. Listen, we're all here for you. If you ever need anyone to talk to, don't hesitate.

[omega sentry]

Fuck that's just wrong....my gramms died of cancer...it sucks. :cry:

[Lady_Raven]

I am so sorry steve if thereis anything I can do just pm me.
Loren

[Locoduck]

Heartfelt blessings, and big shoulders to cry on man. At the very least, know that the love will never leave.

[hannu]

My condolencies. From the bottom of my heart.

You´ll live through this.

[r nelson]

Condolences, Steve. I don't know what else to say; I can't imagine what you're going through, but my thoughts are with you, man.

[SethNI]

Nothing much to say. Just keep strong, dude.

[Wasabe]

Words just seem so inadequate. My heartfelt condolensces.

[Ron Phillips]

As I said in the previous thread, I wish you the best buddy.

I remember reading recently that 1 in 3 people will be affected by cancer in their lifetime and a 1/3 again will die from it. It is a war we could win if we weren't funneling billions into unwinnable wars over ego and gas. It does need to stop.

Hang in there and live the best life possible for her. For your Allison.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Ron's right. If we weren't so busy building a better death trap people wouldn't have to suffer through things like cancer. It's just not right.

Thank you for all the kind words. Allison would have loved to know that so many people were saying so many nice things. I know a lot of people in the general area didn't "know" her but she was a genuinely good person who only wanted to help others. In her work, in her life, all she wanted to do was help. She was a far better person than I ever deserved and I miss her so much. Stick close to your loved ones. The petty shit in life is exactly that and you never know when they could be taken from you.

Watch yourselves, watch your girls, stick close to each other.

[DanMatrix]

This hits home for me, only a week ago my mother came within mm's of death.
We had to call 911 and all that terrible crap but shes home now and is fine.
My mom has ALS which eventually is fatal, like some cancers are.

I'm very sorry to hear this and wish you all the best.

[chaosgoat]

I remember reading recently that 1 in 3 people will be affected by cancer in their lifetime and a 1/3 again will die from it.

Hope this doesn't derail anything, but that's a terrifying figure :cry:

Please take care of yourselves, everyone.

[Sprinter]

Sorry for your loss, man.

[RAMolinelli]

Sorry for your loss my man

[onizuka43]

I'm sorry for your lose. Just try and remember all the good times and try and be the person that she loved.

[Ajax]

Please accept my heartfelt condolences for your loss, my father died from cancer two years ago I know how horrible that is. I am very sorry for your loss, she sounded like a wonderful person and I am sure she will be deeply missed by all who knew her.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thank you, everyone. I'd say more but I just can't. I'm sorry.

[Paul Sanderson]

I'm like Jim Giar, I lost my dad to cancer (in 1995), so I know how terrible this disease can be. You're the best, Steve, and an amazing talent. Don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Hang in there, my friend.

[compton]

It does seem like it's every where now I've had members of my family fall to cancer . My GF dad has it now . and my best friends father died 6 years ago.

I know there are no words that will make you feal better. I just hope you can always remember her and smile.

[BEN DENNIS]

Steve,... I know we don't see eye to eye on the topic, but I still love ya and I'll be prayin' for ya man.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thank you.

[mistermaxx]

Steve,

I just said a prayer for you, that you be comforted and strengthened.

I'm so very, very sorry for your loss.

Dwayne Macadangdang (mistermaxx)

[Nick Pitarra]

That just hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm so sad for your loss Musgrave. She was incredibly sweet and strong in all her post...such a fighter. I can't imagine what your going through.

My prayers are with you buddy.

~nick

[carriertone]

I am truly sorry for your loss my friend. As sad as I am, I am angry too. I just saw one of those Viagra commercials, and it pisses me off that we haven't found a cure for cancer or HIV yet, but we have time and money to fix "erectile dysfunction". My dad died from cancer that his doctor wasn't paying close enough attention to find. Cancer shouldn't still be a problem in this day and age. If you need anything, I mean anything, PM me. My condolences.

- Carl

[Wayne Drake]

I am sorry about your loss, sir. My aunt in mexico died from it in 2002. I went to see her before it got real bad, and then RIGHT when my mom and I got back from the flight we heard the bad news on the machine. I barely knew her.

Be strong!

[Amanda]

Steve,
I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say, but my heart goes out to you. I can't offer any advise, and I won't say be strong either. Sometimes it is best to be weak and let those around you be strong. It is ok to be sad, angry, hurt. It is ok to smile when you think about her and it is ok to cry for her. Don't be tough for everyone else. Don't be tough for yourself. Just know that we are all here for you if you need us. I don't know if you believe in God but know that you are in our prayers.
let us know if there is anything we can do to help.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Dwayne: Thanks for your prayers. We could use all the help we can get at this point.

nick: Thanks, man. She was a sweetheart to be sure.

Carl: I agree. The so-called world leaders spent TRILLIONS of dollars a year finding better ways for us to kill each other but they can't (or won't) cure cancer or AIDS or anything else. It's total bullshit.

Wayne: Thank you. Cancer can strike so hard and fast sometimes. It's insane.

Amanda: Thanks. I've started talking to her throughout the day and, honestly, it's helped a lot. Her sisters have started calling and messaging me again so it's nice to have them to talk to as well. They're still my family and always will be.

[chris stevens]

sorry for your loss, steve.
be strong, brother. death is not the end.

[down21]

Sincere condolances, very, very sorry to hear it.

[Bishop]

Damn... just... damn.

I haven't been around here for months, and this is what I come back to. I had to read the first post twice to make sure I read it right. I am so sorry for your loss Steve, and the pain you and her family are going through. I've lost multiple family members to cancer as well, and I know it hurts a lot. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours right now.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks everyone.

Bishop: It's a mess. Everything is just a mess. Thank you for your prayers.

[BW Fan]

Steve,

Just add my condolences to the rest you've received. Very sorry to hear of your loss, sir. Take care of yourself.

~Ed!

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thank you, Ed.

[Great Scott]

Hey Steve, I know I couldn't possibly say anything that can help...just know my thoughts and condolences are with you brother.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Hey, GS. Long time. Thanks for your thoughts.

[captainarian]

i'm really sorry,
i know how it feels to loose a loved one so suddenly, hope your sadness fades pretty soon steve.
my condolences :(

[Grimboy]

You will be in my thoughts an prayers.

[dx]

Steve...man...I haven't been around...I just saw the thread.

My heart goes out to you man. I have no idea what to write, except we are all here for you man.

Keith

[JonHParrish]

I'm sorry for your loss, Steve. I haven't really been on too much, but when I saw this I just had to say something. I really hope that things get better. One of my friends is actually just recovering from leukemia and I thank god for that. Cancer is a frightening thing, but I think that when we're there for the people we care about when they need us, it helps both them and us. I send my condolences and hope that you're able to get through this.

Respectfully,
Jon H. Parrish

[Mr.Musgrave]

Cap: Thanks, man. Stay safe.

Grim: That's good of you.

Keith: Thanks, man. It's been rough.

Jon: Thank you. Send your friend my best wishes. Stick by 'em.

[cbgiles]

Steve,
We don't know each other, other than jousting in the posts(and you scare me), but you have my prayers. Stay strong like you are!! If there's anything I can do for you let me know.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, man. Things have been a fucking disaster today so if you feel the need to smash me in the head with a hammer, please feel free.

[KultBaby]

I'm not big with words, nor have I been keeping up with this forum lately, so I'll just give my condolences.

[albone]

My condolences, Steve. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[SMT]

I am still new here but I am deeply sorry for your loss. You and your's are in my prayers and I wish you all the best through these trying and difficult times.
:cry:

May God bless and keep you.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thank you for your well wishes everyone. I really appreciate it. Think kindly of her.

[swayvacious1]

i'm so sorry for your lost mr. musgrave, my prayers are with you and her... the only thing i can say is listen to trisha yearwood- for only you- it's a very wonderful song..... again steve my prayers are with you.

[Justice41]

I don't know what to say Mussy, I'm welling up over here. Brings back memories of my sister who just died about two years ago from colon cancer. Hell she was only 2 years older than me and had two teenaged daughters.
Hope you and all involved can pull out of this. Best wishes man.

[Mr.Musgrave]

sway: Thanks, man.

Justice: Thanks, man. I'm sorry to hear about your sister, and her kids for that matter. Cancer really doesn't seem to care how old you are, it just eats you alive no matter what.

[Justice41]

Worst yet is that their father was a drug addict and got himself shot in the head recently so the two are basically homeless living with his relatives. one is 19 the other 15 now. It went fast for her. 6 months from diagnosis to death. In the end she looked like Tammy Faye.
It's an ugly disease. How old was she if you don't mind telling?

[Mr.Musgrave]

She was only 24.

[Justice41]

Damn! Just starting to live life.... Sorry.

[lebeau35]

Musgrave,


I just saw this and my prayers are DEFINITELY with u. Nothing I can say will change things, but in times 2 come, take solace in your love for her.


Peace,

[Mr.Musgrave]

Justice: Yeah, stopped right out of the gate. We had a million plans and thanks to that stupid disease they never made it off the page. What a mess.

lebeau: Thank you.

[linnry]

My condolences, Steve.
I know there is nothing I can say.
I'll be thinking of you and praying for you.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, linnry. I'd like to say things are getting easier but they're just frickin' not.

[JustAnotherFace]

my heart goes out to you mus . xoo

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, hon.

[Shin_Jinlaw]

Musgrave.....

I known you when I was first here back in 2003. I've always inquired about you man, for you seem to be a pretty good person, let alone everyone here just loves you man. But to come back to hear that your girl died? I know that death isn't a great thing to most, if not all, but deep down man I know how you feel. I can type up who I's lost these past 2 years, but I don't think it'll come down to what you've experienced. I just know I want you to try to live life to the fullest, and I can be here for a home boy when he's down man. I'm VERY sorry for your lost, and I hope you find salvation with your mind man, and your life.

I'm here for you, my man. :)

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, Shin. I'd like to say it's gotten easier to deal with but that would just be a damned lie.

[mrwewiii]

jesus. musgrave... i am terribly sorry to hear this dude. that just sucks in so many stupid efin ways. i am really sorry. :(

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thank you. It really does suck to be sure.

[Comix Obsession]

I never posted in here and for that I'm truly sorry.

You have my condolences, Musgrave, you really do. I hope you are getting along ok.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Hey, CO. I just saw your post. Thanks, man. A lot of the weight has lifted as I've realized she wouldn't want me walking through life half-dead. She was always afraid her death would kill me. I can't believe she's been gone almost a year. There's still not a time in the day where I don't miss her. Anyway, thanks.

[Paul Sanderson]

Good to hear you're doing better, Steve. You had us worried there for awhile.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Good to hear you're doing better, Steve. You had us worried there for awhile.


Yeah, apparently people start to worry when you spend all your time swallowing pills and booze by the handful. But I've lost some bad friends, gained some new influences, and I'm slowly working on a new plan for what's left of this life.

[AthenaRose]

Good news!

[Paul Sanderson]

That's great, Steve. I always knew you had the strength to go on. I always believed in you, mate.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks guys. You've always been a good lot to me and Ally despite myself.

[Comix Obsession]

I'm glad to hear you're doing better, Steve. Sounds like you have focused on all the right things to keep you going, which is excellent news. I'm just sorry I didn't post in here earlier, but I'm glad you're doing better now, that's really good. Good luck in the future, and keep on keeping on. :)

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, man. I appreciate it.

[Grimboy]

Yeah, apparently people start to worry when you spend all your time swallowing pills and booze by the handful. But I've lost some bad friends, gained some new influences, and I'm slowly working on a new plan for what's left of this life.
atta boy stevo! Glad to hear you're doing better!

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, Grim. Today was really bad for some reason but generally I'm doing ok. I think I'm just tired and having a "what if" kind of week.

[Grimboy]

Thanks, Grim. Today was really bad for some reason but generally I'm doing ok. I think I'm just tired and having a "what if" kind of week.
Man I think that is going around alot. Hang in there. You seem to have a good support group here and despite out differences you can bend an ear anytime you like.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, man. I think I'm well past any differences at this point. It's all just too silly, y'know?

[Tom Noir]

Hey Musgrave,

I don't know you, but I'm sorry as hell for your loss. I lost my grandma the same way not too long ago. Keep your spirits up, brother.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, Tom. Sorry to hear about your grandma.

[AthenaRose]

How are things, Steve?

[khoipham]

i just noticed this thread.

sorry for your loss, steve. if it helps at all, i believe that everyone we lose becomes another guardian angel looking out for us from above. so i believe that allison is gonna help you through this and through everything else to come.

[Mr.Musgrave]

How are things, Steve?

Same old. We're coming up on a year since she passed (can you believe it) and that's really weighing on me. I'm still working at the same place and I like it for the most part. My breathing has really gone to shit over the last few days and it's starting to freak me out a bit. I'm going to hit the doctor's after my next paycheck. Honestly, I'm pretty worried it's something bad.

i just noticed this thread.

sorry for your loss, steve. if it helps at all, i believe that everyone we lose becomes another guardian angel looking out for us from above. so i believe that allison is gonna help you through this and through everything else to come.

Thank you. That was a right nice thing to say.

[AthenaRose]

Same old. We're coming up on a year since she passed (can you believe it) and that's really weighing on me.

I thought it must be getting close. Where does the time go?

Glad to hear the job's still going well. Work is a great distractor. And get yourself checked out.

*hugs*

[Paul Sanderson]

Yep, get over to see your doctor. Hopefully it's just anxiety due to the time of year and nothing more sinister.

[j giar]

If I have to drive out there myself and take you I will...Seriously get it checked out...Know we're all here anytime you need someone to talk to..joke with or bitch at. :D Glad to hear the jobs going well.... Jim

[Mr.Musgrave]

Thanks, guys. The doc said it's the same chest infection I've had since last november. I just can't seem to beat it.

[AthenaRose]

That's a long time. But you've hardly been in the peak of physical and mental condition, lately. Keep looking after yourself and hopefully it'll clear up.

[The Spirit]

Thanks, guys. The doc said it's the same chest infection I've had since last november. I just can't seem to beat it.
Have you tried one of those machines that's like a humidifier with eucalpytus or something that you inhale? I can't remeber what they're called. A friend of mine had a condition like that and he used it for a few weeks and it cleared him out.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Well, the main problem is that my medical benefits don't kick in for another three months so I'm living cheaply on the medical side. It tends to come and go but I think I really trashed my immune system during my pneumonia bout.

[j giar]

Well, the main problem is that my medical benefits don't kick in for another three months so I'm living cheaply on the medical side. It tends to come and go but I think I really trashed my immune system during my pneumonia bout.

Then go the cheaper route..Invest in some multi vitamins..(trick is you have to remember to take them in order for them to work. ;) ) And buy as many fruits and veggies as possible..Preferably apples, oranges, kiwi, blueberries...On the veggie side..tomatoes, red peppers, broccoli, cauliflower. It'll help jump start your immune system..and maybe give you a needed boost. Hit Joann up for the recipe for that sacred heart stew of hers..I eat that every couple of months...and its is loaded with healthy shit.

[Mr.Musgrave]

Yeah, I'm working on it. I've started running a mile in the morning and a mile when I get home from work. The distance will increase with time, I didn't want to start out too fast. I'm still having a lot of trouble breathing but the drastic weather changes aren't helping with that.

I have a fair amount of people at work who care about me. It's like having 4-5 mothers, now.

Honestly, I do feel terrible because sometimes I feel like I've moved past what happened with Ally but I know she wouldn't want me torturing myself either. In my heart, I know she's ok. But still...y'know? Sometimes I feel bad for laughing when I can still hear the sadness in her voice.

[jedipencil]

Don't feel guilty Steve... :) :) ... it is ok to laugh and enjoy yourself. It means no disrespect to Ally at all, don't you worry! And Jim gave you fabulous advice - those fruits and veggies, along with some happy times will hopefully do wonders for your immune system... :) It is quite alright to be happy, dear!

[deanne]

I just wanted to say, thanks again for coming out last Saturday, Steve. It did mean a lot to me. :) I know you didn't come to just see me. BUT it's nice to think that way. :p

It's always nice to see someone smile. And boy, did you smile a lot. :har: I promise not to tell, though. ;)

Keep taking care of yourself...

I still love ya. :) *hugs*

[AthenaRose]

Don't feel guilty Steve... :) :) ... it is ok to laugh and enjoy yourself. It means no disrespect to Ally at all, don't you worry! And Jim gave you fabulous advice - those fruits and veggies, along with some happy times will hopefully do wonders for your immune system... :) It is quite alright to be happy, dear!

Laughter really is the best medicine. Happy people have healthier immune systems.

[j giar]

Remember Steve......Everyone deserves to be happy.

[Scaleyinx]

Don't feel guilty Steve... :) :) ... it is ok to laugh and enjoy yourself. It means no disrespect to Ally at all, don't you worry! And Jim gave you fabulous advice - those fruits and veggies, along with some happy times will hopefully do wonders for your immune system... :) It is quite alright to be happy, dear!


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What she said! I couldn't have said it any better. :)

It was always Ally's wish for you to be happy and cared for. You have always had friends here at DW that love you. And now, with the addition of the 4-5 mother's you have at work to care for you and you moving past to a place where you can smile and laugh again, Steve, you are honoring her. :)

[j giar]

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What she said! I couldn't have said it any better. :)

It was always Ally's wish for you to be happy and cared for. You have always had friends here at DW that love you. And now, with the addition of the 4-5 mother's you have at work to care for you and you moving past to a place where you can smile and laugh again, Steve, you are honoring her. :)

You, young lady, are awesome. :thumbs:

[Paul Sanderson]

Yep, well said, Scaley. Lovely sentiments, shared by us all :D

[Mr.Musgrave]

^
What she said! I couldn't have said it any better. :)

It was always Ally's wish for you to be happy and cared for. You have always had friends here at DW that love you. And now, with the addition of the 4-5 mother's you have at work to care for you and you moving past to a place where you can smile and laugh again, Steve, you are honoring her. :)


The closer it gets to June 1st, the angrier I'm becoming. Not at anything in particular, just angry. I suppose it's to be expected.

Sorry it took me so long to get back to this thread. I've kind of been hiding from it and most everything else.